Wants

I want something I can’t have…. And please take note that I said I want something that I can’t have and not I need something that I can’t have. There is a Mariana Trench full of differences between what we want and what we need and most people just don’t realize this nor are they willing to even acknowledge that the differences exist. But I digress and this is a discussion better left for a later date.

You would be amazed how often I find myself in this situation. I am known for this and my mind wrestles with it daily, so the question I am asking is how should I handle it? I know there is a wide range of possible wants but can’t haves here (from opening my heart up to someone special to the very sexy lady I met in another state or even that chocolate candy bar calling my name), but in general what is the best way to cope when confronted with a bad case of the “wants?”

Well, now I try to avoid what I can’t have and I just walk away and don’t look back (and this means I have to put another brick in the wall around what’s left of my heart.) There’s no point in staring it down if it will never be mine, right? But then there is that other option I sometime choose or maybe it simply chooses me, I’m not really quite sure which it is. I become almost obsessed with it, I examine almost every detail until I find something I don’t want or need in it anymore. This “Ten Point Check” is often time consuming and I find myself asking, “Now why didn’t I just walk away earlier?” Not only did I waste my time pondering it but now I don’t want it and I still can’t have it!

Are there any answers out there???

“If you need me to I'll wait until September.
It's come and gone Novembers’ on its way.
So easy to forget and hard to remember,
the way to getting back our self esteem

No regrets. You've got no one left!
I hope that every step,
reminds you of the ones that you left.” One Less Reason

Till next time - Live in peace and live NOW!